Probably a good choice. If you ever do heroin once you'll know exactly why people get addicted to it. There is absolutely nothing like it. I've never had a suicidal thought in my life, but if I ever decided to end it all, I'd overdose on smack and just rush to death. The most powerful drug I ever took was dilaudid and that was in the hospital a few years ago when I had a kidney stone. The pain was the most intense I have ever suffered (two women told me it is worse than childbirth, which is sobering). Anyway, in the emergency room, they gave me four shots of morphine over the course of an hour and it didn't even knock the pain down any. Then they came in and gave me a shot of dilaudid and the pain disappeared in 20 seconds! It was like a fucking miracle. The doc said it is about 8 times more powerful than morphine or heroin.